Don't Share This With Anyone Else

EDIT:  I've added a note at the end of this post.

It's been FAR too long since I posted to my own blog.  What is that about?  I sit around here, clipping my nails and drinking coffee brewed from different kinds of beans (and then asking myself, what kind of coffee is THIS, for heaven's sake?)  But I don't have time to post to my blog?  What kind of blogger am I?

So I decided this morning to share some photos I swore to myself (but I've heard all kinds of language so it didn't bother me) I would never show.

YAY!  Going against my own promises to myself!!

This is what makes life a panoply.  If that's a word.

Anyway, given that I have been working furiously (albeit, in a good mood) on little bits of cards and gluing things and sending them out in the dark of the morning without taking badly lighted pictures, I have not had the luxury of time to prepare anything visual for you of late.  However!  I decided to share some pages from my failed Sketchbook Project journal.

Here's the deal.  I've since covered over the pages of this journal.  Because I hated it.  I don't use the word hate lightly.  My point is, I disliked it with the ferocity of not liking it even a little bit.

So, on the cusp of the Sketchbook Project deadline, I did not send in my Sketchbook.  That's right!  I paid them $25.00 to frustrate the heck out of me!  And I hope they're happy!

But I took some flash photos in the dead of a January night, just to commemorate the pages for myself.  And I've decided that, since I did tell you that I had joined the project, and since I did tell you that I was playing with cut papers and mosaicky methods, I should go ahead and share it with you.  I believe it does an artist good to share her failures as well as her non-failures (but I suppose one could argue that all beliefs are not equally valid).

Now.
I'm going to go wash my eyes out with soap.



NOTE:  I've so appreciated everyone's kind and enthusiastic feedback!  


I'm learning that I don't have to love everything I do, but when I am really dissatisfied with something, it's okay to give it a send-off.  I probably overstated my dislike for some of these pages, because I've saved several of the spreads and have plans for them, either in a journal or larger-format canvases.  But in terms of some of these pages being archived forever, it just didn't sit well with me.  The whimsy and humor I was going for were there.  However, several pages were not constructed well and were cracking and coming apart.  Some of the elements of other pages had been worked over two or three times and still not right.  And 5 of the pages had not even been started.  I just came up on deadline and did not have the time or inclination to try to beat it.  


Everything that's been shared has been really valuable to me.  Thanks for being part of my process!